Want you back
We brought 3 chicks in March 2020 - pink, yellow and white. They might be just less than a week old. Not sure of their gender but I guess they are male, because only male chicks are sold in market.
I don't have a lawn or garden so I kept them in my house. For one month they were active and roaming and chirping. I was eager to return from the office as if they were waiting for me. I never tired of watching them.
They were so cute, but I never tried to hold them as I'm afraid of handling them. Initially I used to change the water once in 2 days, scatter the food on paper in their room, and I used to leave it for 2 days as they were pecking at the food.
Soon they were looking dull and their feathers are dusted. I wanted to bathe them but as I said I'm afraid of handling them, I didn't. After one month the yellow chick started limping. Gradually it became dull, its neck was slightly bent to one side. It had difficulty in standing and was interested in sitting.
As I have to attend duty after lockdown after 2 months I put them in my sister's house and I used to visit them. After one week she called me and said that yellow chick was no more and they buried it.
I fought with her for burying it without informing me. I was in the office then. I was so sorry as I didn't have the last touch of my cute innocent chick.
Next day I asked them to take me to that place so that I can bring it from there and keep it in my garden vase. We went there and dug the place and found her with ants surrounding her.
I felt so bad looking her in such a situation. I touched her in the pit itself and put the soil back.
But now I have so many things going in my mind with regret and guilt. I doubt whether it was unconscious or dead and they buried it within an hour. If I was present at the moment, I would have made sure.
It is disturbing my mind very much that what if it was buried alive and how much it would have suffered in that situation.
Second thing, my foolish act of digging again to see her. Whether she gets peace for this mean act of mine?
Third, what went wrong with her? Was she injured or diseased or not taken proper care by me initially?
I miss my sweet little thing so much that I'm not willing to go to office also. And finally in just 2 and half months it left us.
I want my bird to rest in peace and to be forgiven by her for my foolish act of digging again.
Sorry dear. I want you back. I really miss you like anything.